He is standing naked in front of the full length mirror of his tiny bathroom. All the lights are off. He glows from within.
He awoke from another one of his dreams, at the usual time. He has become accustomed to these nightly interruptions. The full moon intensifies his ether travels and leaves him stumbling into awakening. Tonight he was down in a diamond mine, a city of false refracted light underground, governed by fear and illumination as currency. Wars raged over prisms gift, and countless suffered. And he knew the way to a better light. He gathered who he could and led them out through the dark maze. And just as the last rescued souls emerged through the rock into redemption, our hero turned back and walked quietly into the dark. There were more to bring out. And he can always find his way thru the dark.
He studies his body. In the blue-black of the early dark morn, there would be nothing to see. But tonight, his body is aglow. Every scar, every healed cleave, sutured puncture, is alight from within, like some derma muted glorious glowing aurora borealis. He is patchwork of radiant illumination.
He studies this glow and makes notes. Each one is different, and has an accompanying variance of associated pain and release, memory and connection.
He notices his left calf first. It shines bright and purrfect rays of straight white light emanate from all twenty dots along the wide scribed scar line that separates them with an eighth inch wide by three inch mottled and muted glow from underneath.
Next he notices his right shin. Thirteen stitches on Friday the thirteenth. This one sheds muted light, and hurts a bit less, glows like quiet embers.
His left arm burns. The light that sears off this scar is without defined shape; no stitch marks here to pull flesh and viscera together, give it a pleasant, familiar shape. This wound, this light, is reflection of deep tear and pull of flesh off of metal.
Below his lower lip, a straw of hollow swirling light shines forth; A small vortex like the tiniest of black holes in space, surrounded by a helix of ROYGBIV light. He passes a finger through it, through its beam reflected off the mirror. He lifts and tilts his head and uses the beam to write words upon the ceiling, the wall, “I love you”, and “Can you hear me?” He especially likes the motion required to make a question mark. This familiar, one dimensional character has now become a gesture, a three dimensional expression. Question mark is now defined, like a shrug or a smile.
There is a myriad of light from within that shines and glows from countless scars. Some are profound. Others are barely perceptible. But they all glow and shine in their own specific way. Each one its own universe of love and pain. Each one, a reminder of where he has been. Each one, a calling to home.
From his left side, high upon his chest, but close to his heart, the brightest light bursts forth. It is not so much light, as a tightly packed rod of ions and atoms. He tries to pass his hand through this beam, but it is impenetrable. It is steel light from within. And it hurts and burns like all hell. Around the white beam, an array of amber threads of light, wave about like the thick hairs of a lover on the aqua-marine surface of a subtle
Adriatic Sea. It is a star being born, captured by a
telescope a million miles, a million years away. Smart scientists and star gazers, far away
from here, will not try to break this event into particles and purpose; they
will simple define it as “Love”.
He stands and studies his glowing scars, the marks of his travels; the map of him. And as the full moon says goodnight and the new day is about to awake, the light from within and the pain, skips away, like a child called home after a good day of play.
He turns from the mirror, and walks back through the dark (he can always find his way), towards his bed, to sleep.
He lies quietly, remembers where he has been, and knows where he will be going.
He sets himself, rightly, to sleep, and dreams of her. All of this, these scars and journeys have always been for her. She is the healing hand of home. And each day she grows closer.